The journey starts here
Yes!
This will be the start of my new chapter, my journey to lighter.
Maybe sometimes we carry too much of the other sides baggage, because we believe we must save and give more. Because we believe we must always be the "bigger person". Who indoctrinated us that we are not allowed to be human? WE are not allowed to say how we feel or how others make us feel? Never say you hate someone - so rude!?
Truth is we all hate someone, or even maybe a few people in our lives. We carry the revenge within us, we want to be in their face and show them, "Look, I am not to be defeated by the likes of you!" Strange how this trap exists only in my mind. I'm pretty certain the few people I hate feel the same about me (I know this from the stories of my life, which I did not live, yet is doing the rounds).
Then out of the blue, the tik tok reels become relevant. Did I heal or did I choose to forget?
What a loaded question this one is. Did I heal? Did I just push aside the problem? Where on my journey did I close the door on them to shut them out? Forgetting is not healing. Forgetting is not facing my own insecurities or even enhancing or acknowledging my own self-worth. How am I supposed to know if my soul is well, when I cannot tell if they are or are not my squatters in my mind?
Life has a funny way of making loops. Loops that will come back until you tie the ends up. I think it is time to listen to the whisper of the Lord. Time to kneal down and armour up with the correct suit. Not the one we or I think we can manage ourselves.
After all, everything we need is on the bottom shelf in the Lords shop.
Then why do I still feel so lost inside my heart and head?