When overwhelmed becomes whelmed

 The blindness of the rage

The lungless of the stage

when the present is in a haze

and the future in a faze


When your breathing is a job

A reminder that you are not a slob

While the whole time you deny

The feelings that make you shy


And when the storm passes over

your thoughts rush in like a rover

What did I respond toward

How did I react accord


When the overwhelmed becomes whelmed

Forgiveness is helmed

Sorry is in order to say

For our imperfection we get to pray


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